Skip this pretense and cut straight to dying

haven't been on here in years. heres a song i wrote. haha.

2009-05-04T23:35:44Z

Now days dont go by as fast, as they used to
And my thoughts, they keep me awake at night
This city is to familiar, for me to stay
I've been here before, I've seen this before

A one way ticket, a second chance
To find you the start of something new
Cuz my bags are always packed, this is temporary
I dont' want to stay but I don't know where to go

Another year wasted, on rough goodbyes to a thousand faces
That i may never see again
It's always hard to leave, but it gets easier to let go
I've been here before, I've seen this before

A one way ticket, a second chance
To find you the start of something new
Cuz my bags are always packed, this is temporary
I dont' want to stay but I don't know where to go

yeah

2006-12-17T18:35:30Z

so i haven't been on here in forever and a day and i just remembered that i had one. i wrote a poem/song thing a while ago and i found it the other day so i figured i'll post it on here.

My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In a year and a half you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

werd

2006-07-12T16:21:35Z

Well things are starting to get better for me. I started my new job yesterday and i love it. I work for Boyce Henley Construction. I'm a carpenter, it makes me feel important haha. We build Barn, and saunas for people, it's a lot of fun. I get to play with nail guns and power tools all day and i make $8.50 an hour. have a nice day

shitty

2006-07-06T23:44:35Z

It's been quite some time since i've updated and things have been going really shitty for me lately. My grandpa's been really sick lately and need to have several surgeries. Sunday morning i found out that he's dying of cancer and it's been there for a while. I visited him on the 4th and all i can say is he must be the strongest person i know. He was moving around like nothing was wrong with him. He could barely talk but he managed to tell me that he loves me. It was hard seeing him like that even though was moving around pretty good, i just know he's not doing well. He looked like a ghost. And to make things better yesterday i found out that jason died in a car accident. I didn't know him very well but i've been friends with hannah for a long time and i know she really cares about him. I can't imagine how she feels. I'm glad she's okay though. I just want to thank all of you who are my friends. With out I don't think i could make it through everything i go through. thank you all and i love you guys and girls.

Tommis

blah

2006-05-15T04:13:01Z

Well today's been ungodly boring. I went to my gradmas for dinner and slept the rest of the day. This needs to stop happening. I sleep way to much. Don't get me wrong i love sleeping but not when i could be out having fun with my friends. I really want hostess cupcakes right now. Have a nice day.

wow

2006-05-10T08:29:34Z

playing in the mud was ridiculous. so fun, so cold. the shower was fun too haha. what a great day. carl and jamie we must do that again soon only we won't have followers this time. werd

woot

2006-05-02T21:48:53Z

Last night was so fun. We were ridiculous. I haven't had that much fun in so long. My friends kick some serious ass and i love them. peace bitches

blah

2006-04-30T15:40:52Z

lately i've been in the lamest moods, i'm not happy but i'm also not unhappy. I've been easily irritated too.

Love always

this

2006-04-26T00:28:32Z

My name:

Who is the love of my life:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name:

How long have you known me:

When is the last time that we saw each other:

Do I smoke:

Do I drink:

When is my birthday:

What was your first impression upon meeting me:

Do I have any siblings:

Whats one of my favorite things to do:

Am I funny:

Whats my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

Do I have any special talents:

Would you consider me a friend/good friend:

Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):

What is a memory we have once had:

Have you ever hugged me:

Do you miss me....do you think I miss you:

What is my favorite food:

Have you ever had a crush on me:

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

Whats your favorite memory of me:

Who do I like right now:

What is my worst habit:

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is one thing I would bring:

Are we friends:

Comment your responses, and then repost a blank one for yourself!

<3 :)

:)

2006-04-26T00:27:08Z

I love Tom!!!

~Jamie

hahahaaa

WOOT

2006-04-26T00:26:38Z

Werd, this is gonna be RAD